Guest Author: Laurie Alice Eakes
All my life, I have heard a lot about forgiving others. Forgive my big sister for teasing me. Forgive that teacher who blamed me for something I didn’t do, forgive my mom for not always being the understanding parent we think our friends’ parents are. Never did I hear about forgiving myself.
I was well past the age considered adulthood before the concept of self-forgiveness sank in. By this time, I had suffered a great deal of emotional and physical pain from the residual effects of self-unforgiveness—I’m bad; therefore, I deserve this. I don’t deserve more.
Since I am a novelist, I knew this was a theme I wanted to explore through the lives of my characters. Although I didn’t set out the concept of forgiving oneself to be the theme of the Midwives series, it happened, grew, and taught me even more about it than I had already learned. As each of the three stories with midwives as the main characters (and that is a wholly different subject of girl power in history) Choices of the Heart, the third book in the series, though a stand-alone on its own merit, grew from this exploration of self-forgiveness and how we don’t have to go it alone. I took a young woman who seemingly had it all—a loving family, comfort, if not wealth, and not only extraordinary good looks, but kindness and a profession at which she was proving an apt practitioner.
Out of this self-confidence, however, is born a young woman who begins to think she is above simple rules like listening to those who are older and wiser. She is, after all, not a child, but an adult at twenty-four.
Her actions are well meaning. She thinks she is doing her due diligence to her pregnant patient, as a midwife. But her parents have warned her not to go to the woman’s house alone. Esther does anyway—and tragedy ensues. Several lives, including Esther’s are ruined.
The book opens four months after the incident. Once again, Esther, with good intentions, takes a step that leads her into danger to her person and her heart. She must make many choices. The wrong ones could see history repeating itself with many lives lost. The right ones can change numerous lives for the better, including her own. And at the root of the events tragic and happy lies the theme of self-forgiveness and the horror that stems from not releasing the past.
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“Eakes has a charming way of making her novels come to life without being over the top,” writes Romantic times of bestselling, award-winning author Laurie Alice Eakes. Since she lay in bed as a child telling herself stories, she has fulfilled her dream of becoming a published author, with nearly twenty books in print and more on the way. Besides writing, she enjoys giving inspirational talks, long walks, and knitting albeit badly. She lives in Texas with her husband and sundry animals.
You can read more about Choices of the Heart and her other books, including excerpts, on her web site http://www.lauriealiceeakes.com